I had an AHA! moment the other day. When you are retired you have time to look back at your life and come to conclusions on previous actions you have done in the past.
I was shocked when I positively tested for Attention Deficit Disorder (ADD) at the age of 56. Some previous actions recurring in my past started to make total sense after the diagnosis- like never being able to type a single email (or blog entry) without having multiple words missing and obvious spelling errors. My mind wanders uncontrollably based on the average persons mind. I can't focus long enough to type a stupid email without errors- maddening. I have to go over the same email or blog entry several times to get it right. Lucky I am incredibly self-motivated to get things as close to right as I can.
Anyway, after discussing, with some of my family members, the social behaviors I have in crowds and unplanned events I came to the conclusion I am probably autistic, as well. Sure enough, when I researched the possibility online a person with ADD has a better chance to be autistic than a non-ADD person.
I want to be tested for autism. I found out it is still a little understood behavior anomaly. I will have to probably go to a university to be tested because my health care provider doesn't even test for it.
My AHA! moment, based on preliminary research, is the fact there are "fifty different shades of autism". Research hasn't even scratched the surface of the autistic behavior anomaly.
I have known my way of thinking is different than most people since I was in the tenth grade. I was the only one in my physics class that figured out the frequency of fluorescent light in the room made a spinning centrifuge full of tubes look like they were not moving as the centrifuge reached a certain speed- when it was first turned on or first turned off.
I have finally discovered how I figured it out. My "autistic" brain is wired differently than most people. I can take a specific given image in my mind (like a stationary image of a centrifuge full of test tubes) and overlay multiple versions of different images on top of the stationary centrifuge image. Especially while I am sleeping, I can vary images of environmental variables I know surround the stationary centrifuge image like light, speed of centrifuge, eye focus, etc. By flipping through various images of the environment surrounding the stationary centrifuge at an incredible speed in my brain I am able to figure out which tweaked environmental variables account for the sudden stationary view of a twirling centrifuge! I do this all the time when I am sleeping to solve problems. For example, when painting a picture from scratch I am able to iterate through thousands of background images of a painting I am doing and select what background I want for the particular landscape painting I am trying to simplify so I can get it done in a timely manner to bring to art class I am in for the next week. The speed this happens in my mind is incredible!
That AHA! moment is huge! There are fifty shades of autism and I have identified my special form of image overlay and retrieval to solve problems while I am sleeping.
That is a huge discovery for me personally! I find it fascinating and my gift to autism research if anyone in the field is reading this.
I looked at a YouTube video where someone with autism was explaining how you can tell if you have it or not. My past "social" behaviors made total sense after the explanation of key traits autistic people have. My version of those key traits are not manifested in quite the same way as the person on the YouTube video. Therefore, I concluded there are probably "fifty shades" of autism.
Update 02-01-2018: I woke up two hours after typing this blog in the early morning. I caught my mind racing through the words I had written two hours before in this blog. Apparently my subconscious mind was a little mad at me for not mentioning its part in the whole process. As I have stated many times the subconscious mind can be blatant, rude and a bit clever at relaying a pointed message to my conscious mind which was in the process of reviewing the fact my mind can overlay thousands of images on a stationary image to solve a specific problem...My subconscious pipes in an says in a smart aleck way,
"And June, I said, 'And I just sit on his box!' I then saw images of rock stars with long hair laughing at the crude joke in my mind.
So my conscious mind takes over and tries to figure out this subconscious joke. The meaning didn't immediately come to me. I didn't get the joke at first.
My conscious mind interpreted the subconscious, crude joke as,
"And June, I said, 'And I just sit on his head (slang for toilet) and feed him sh*t (the thousand of images I iterate through to figure out a problem)!'"...canned laughter follows.
Who is "June"???...All I could think of there was a "Jackie Gleason Show" in the 1950s with the "June Taylor Dancers".
Wow that is really pulling old memories out of the hat! I never knew I even knew who June Taylor was and how it related to the "Jackie Gleason Show (Honeymooners???) but this is the first idea that popped into my conscious mind when thinking about the incredibly concise and rude joke my subconscious mind interjected during my dream!
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I was shocked when I positively tested for Attention Deficit Disorder (ADD) at the age of 56. Some previous actions recurring in my past started to make total sense after the diagnosis- like never being able to type a single email (or blog entry) without having multiple words missing and obvious spelling errors. My mind wanders uncontrollably based on the average persons mind. I can't focus long enough to type a stupid email without errors- maddening. I have to go over the same email or blog entry several times to get it right. Lucky I am incredibly self-motivated to get things as close to right as I can.
Anyway, after discussing, with some of my family members, the social behaviors I have in crowds and unplanned events I came to the conclusion I am probably autistic, as well. Sure enough, when I researched the possibility online a person with ADD has a better chance to be autistic than a non-ADD person.
I want to be tested for autism. I found out it is still a little understood behavior anomaly. I will have to probably go to a university to be tested because my health care provider doesn't even test for it.
My AHA! moment, based on preliminary research, is the fact there are "fifty different shades of autism". Research hasn't even scratched the surface of the autistic behavior anomaly.
I have known my way of thinking is different than most people since I was in the tenth grade. I was the only one in my physics class that figured out the frequency of fluorescent light in the room made a spinning centrifuge full of tubes look like they were not moving as the centrifuge reached a certain speed- when it was first turned on or first turned off.
I have finally discovered how I figured it out. My "autistic" brain is wired differently than most people. I can take a specific given image in my mind (like a stationary image of a centrifuge full of test tubes) and overlay multiple versions of different images on top of the stationary centrifuge image. Especially while I am sleeping, I can vary images of environmental variables I know surround the stationary centrifuge image like light, speed of centrifuge, eye focus, etc. By flipping through various images of the environment surrounding the stationary centrifuge at an incredible speed in my brain I am able to figure out which tweaked environmental variables account for the sudden stationary view of a twirling centrifuge! I do this all the time when I am sleeping to solve problems. For example, when painting a picture from scratch I am able to iterate through thousands of background images of a painting I am doing and select what background I want for the particular landscape painting I am trying to simplify so I can get it done in a timely manner to bring to art class I am in for the next week. The speed this happens in my mind is incredible!
That AHA! moment is huge! There are fifty shades of autism and I have identified my special form of image overlay and retrieval to solve problems while I am sleeping.
That is a huge discovery for me personally! I find it fascinating and my gift to autism research if anyone in the field is reading this.
I looked at a YouTube video where someone with autism was explaining how you can tell if you have it or not. My past "social" behaviors made total sense after the explanation of key traits autistic people have. My version of those key traits are not manifested in quite the same way as the person on the YouTube video. Therefore, I concluded there are probably "fifty shades" of autism.
Update 02-01-2018: I woke up two hours after typing this blog in the early morning. I caught my mind racing through the words I had written two hours before in this blog. Apparently my subconscious mind was a little mad at me for not mentioning its part in the whole process. As I have stated many times the subconscious mind can be blatant, rude and a bit clever at relaying a pointed message to my conscious mind which was in the process of reviewing the fact my mind can overlay thousands of images on a stationary image to solve a specific problem...My subconscious pipes in an says in a smart aleck way,
"And June, I said, 'And I just sit on his box!' I then saw images of rock stars with long hair laughing at the crude joke in my mind.
So my conscious mind takes over and tries to figure out this subconscious joke. The meaning didn't immediately come to me. I didn't get the joke at first.
My conscious mind interpreted the subconscious, crude joke as,
"And June, I said, 'And I just sit on his head (slang for toilet) and feed him sh*t (the thousand of images I iterate through to figure out a problem)!'"...canned laughter follows.
Who is "June"???...All I could think of there was a "Jackie Gleason Show" in the 1950s with the "June Taylor Dancers".
Wow that is really pulling old memories out of the hat! I never knew I even knew who June Taylor was and how it related to the "Jackie Gleason Show (Honeymooners???) but this is the first idea that popped into my conscious mind when thinking about the incredibly concise and rude joke my subconscious mind interjected during my dream!
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